I'll give you the not so good first since we all know the totally awesome...
I had to have my appendix removed two days ago after a week (or really two months) of terrible pain. So far "they" are all telling me baby is fine but I honestly don't think I'll breath until the baby is born. I mentioned a month ago that I had been hospitalized and that was for the same pain. Well, it turns out I have been living with a completely infected and abscessed appendix for, oh, about two months now. Doctors kept telling me that it was just the pregnancy. I kept telling them I had had two babies before and knew the difference between feeling preggers crap and feeling like I am close to death. They would pump me with fluids and send me on my way. Thank the heavens that finally an ER doc ordered an MRI which showed clearly the problem was my appendix. It was far worse than the MRI showed and I am glad to have it gone. But let me tell you, I am a mess. Emotionally and physically. Obviously because of the pregnancy Tylenol is my only pain option. I am exhausted but can't sleep. I am completely incapable of doing anything at home right now, thankfully my mom came up yesterday to help out with the babes. I can't get comfortable anywhere. But the worst for me (pregnancy and operation fears aside) was that after years of time, heart, soul, money and self invested in Obama's campaign I could not actually cast my vote yesterday. I know this may seem silly considering I live in VT since obviously there was no competition here but it really mattered to me. On so many levels. I tried. Believe me I did. But there was no way. I feel so badly about this. This may seem strange but I also feel ashamed. I am mourning this now and writing it here not for sympathy but simply to get it off my chest.
This is a really hard time for me right now. This whole pregnancy has been challenging and in some way it helps to know that I really was very sick and not just imagining things. The doctors who operated and nurses were surprised I was even able to function with the appendix pain for so long. But we do what we have to do.
Needless to say I may be quiet for a while here but I wanted to thank everyone for the Warm Baby Wishes in my last post. Keep 'em coming...I need all the help I can get this time around.
